Catch me if you can...Shooting Star

So he says that he wants to fall in love with me...I ask why he says why not, we make a good team...but he wants to remain the owner and the coach of his team and add me to the roster...No sir, unless I can be the manager and I get all the perks as the coach...we can be co-owners or something. Why does he need a team when he got me...I am the STAR! ...So he has cut some members of the team...I'm thinking the fewer the better...I know he sees clearer now...

If...

If - Destinys Child

Hop Along, Tag Along

So today was quite different. It started different from most Monday morning...FedEx @ 5:30, sort and after sort duties, then to the Bluff to shower and change to head to the office...well this morning was more like a wake up about 7:45am, roll onto the bad foot, hop along to get ready for a training at the office. One wake up call instead of 3. My driver arrived SILENTLY! No real convo, just a little about the weather and shit. I prayed before their arrival that I would keep my mouth and actions to myself. Things are so different. There is distance between us that I really don't understand but I do.

SideBar: See there was sort of a "break up, not so break up" that happen about a month or so back between our foursome. We were together but not together kinda thing. "His girl had a girlfriend", which was my girlfriend. ..No Homo...but my bitches are always the cutest cuties...I miss here...anyway...Things seem to be one way but really weren't, kinda hard to explain but not so much...anyway...feelings got hurt because of some informed decisions. I tried to cushion the blows but got punched in the face cause I was in the way. I kept my mouth closed in hope that all would work out or they would part HAPPILY...

To be continued...

After training, left the office to find lunch to end up back the office to eat lunch in cafeteria. MuzikLover calls, which upsets da Gentleman...The beefin' about something now quite sure what the problem is. I wanna know, but I don't...ya know? Anywho, leave to head to the Bluff to wait until therapy session. At 3pm head to therapy, then back to the Bluff so that da Gentleman can head to the home of the Aristocrats to be an alumni. Its Monday and I get no mexican...this sucks...:pouting::Meanwhile, I download so Destiny's Child from back in the day. Share a song with SC#4, who stops by...much love, my love...for some DMC. She alwaus give Mama something to think about as she heads to her new Kingdom::wink, wink::( I pay attention;)Now I am trying to find a way to help MuzikLover...good night

Signed,
Another day in this wonderful life of mine while fighting a losing battle

Lovesick...

From where I sit...I look out and wonder why us human act the way we do . I want. I need. I know. I am. I won't. I will. I can. So then why do I even try...For what its worth...you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. Missing someone is your heart's way of reminding you that you love them...tired of of feeling empty.

With, In and Out

I think about having you with me, in me, on me daily. Just the thought makes me moist, your sight makes me soaked, your touch makes me flow like the Mississippi to feel you enter me makes my soul scream. My body, soul, mind are then on one accord, insync with yours. I can't put into words what our bodies do when they meet. Its like we are in the same. Its great more than great it incredible.

When we are WITH each other, no one understands what you do for me or what I do for you. WE slip into our own universe when we are together thats before we intertwine with each other. just the conversation, interactions, and time spend is like no other. Once our eyes meet it is over, we aren't coming back to reality until we have to part. Even before our eyes meet, once I cross Shelby County line, even leave Davidson County, or cross the Tennessee River its like our souls have this magnets pull for each other 200 miles away. Like they must meet at least once a month to rejuvenate each other until the next time we meet.

IN, we are in each others heart, mind,spirit and body. To be IN to someone is more than just to intimate with them at least its more than that to me... Its like every time we say we want out that something pulls us deeper than we were before....Mind....to have consideration for each other with every thought....Spirit....the connection that no one else knows and no one understands...BODY....Yes I inspect every inch of you and "him" cause I want to know every scratch, mark, scar or anything (BirthMark)..Sorry that's just me and why can you know all about me and I not know all about you...

ON....I don't think that an explanation is due for the ON....Me on you or you ON me I don't care I just want it....I know how you like me to be on you, on top rolling hips, bouncing, caressing, massaging, tasting anyway you want it. you just want it