Somethings aren't fair...It will be okay!

I am so sorry...there is nothing fair or right about any of this... There is nothing I can say will make it okay... much as I wish it could... There is so much suffering and lost given these times we are in... You have got to believe that it is because of the time and not because of you that this is happening. I know it is true... because I know you... Your intelligence, your humor, your hard work, your attitude are a few of the reasons that I also know that you will get through this... And you know that I am hoping that happens sooner than later... So please when you’re ready, take heart...take care... And trust that everything will turn out okay.

A Reason, A Season, or a Lifetime

A Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically,emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON . . .Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Author Unknown

Learning...

The different between school and life is that in school, you are taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you are given a test that teaches you a lesson.

Monthly Love Horoscope (Jan)

You know better than anybody that the realm of fantasy is a pretty powerful place. After all, what you imagine can become reality far more easily than what you can't imagine! But don't get too carried away on the 1st. Fantasize about what you'd like to see happen in your love life this year. But don't get so stuck in fantasy that you miss what's right in front of you, in reality. If a problem comes up between you two (again) on the 5th, make sure you resolve it before you move on (again), if you don't want to have to deal with this again (again). Your boss is getting on your nerves on the 10th. Don't take it out on your sweetie. Daydreaming will be particularly powerful on the 15th. And your fantasy partner might well just materialize on the 18th and 19th. Is that a love letter tucked into that bouquet of roses that arrived on your desk on the 23rd? Well, well! You do have a way with hearts, don't you! There's a lot more romance in store on the 28th. Don't worry on the 31st about things you can't figure out yet.

I am not a believer of horoscopes but I did find this quite interesting.We will see what happens this month.

Catch me if you can...Shooting Star

So he says that he wants to fall in love with me...I ask why he says why not, we make a good team...but he wants to remain the owner and the coach of his team and add me to the roster...No sir, unless I can be the manager and I get all the perks as the coach...we can be co-owners or something. Why does he need a team when he got me...I am the STAR! ...So he has cut some members of the team...I'm thinking the fewer the better...I know he sees clearer now...

Hop Along, Tag Along

So today was quite different. It started different from most Monday morning...FedEx @ 5:30, sort and after sort duties, then to the Bluff to shower and change to head to the office...well this morning was more like a wake up about 7:45am, roll onto the bad foot, hop along to get ready for a training at the office. One wake up call instead of 3. My driver arrived SILENTLY! No real convo, just a little about the weather and shit. I prayed before their arrival that I would keep my mouth and actions to myself. Things are so different. There is distance between us that I really don't understand but I do.

SideBar: See there was sort of a "break up, not so break up" that happen about a month or so back between our foursome. We were together but not together kinda thing. "His girl had a girlfriend", which was my girlfriend. ..No Homo...but my bitches are always the cutest cuties...I miss here...anyway...Things seem to be one way but really weren't, kinda hard to explain but not so much...anyway...feelings got hurt because of some informed decisions. I tried to cushion the blows but got punched in the face cause I was in the way. I kept my mouth closed in hope that all would work out or they would part HAPPILY...

To be continued...

After training, left the office to find lunch to end up back the office to eat lunch in cafeteria. MuzikLover calls, which upsets da Gentleman...The beefin' about something now quite sure what the problem is. I wanna know, but I don't...ya know? Anywho, leave to head to the Bluff to wait until therapy session. At 3pm head to therapy, then back to the Bluff so that da Gentleman can head to the home of the Aristocrats to be an alumni. Its Monday and I get no mexican...this sucks...:pouting::Meanwhile, I download so Destiny's Child from back in the day. Share a song with SC#4, who stops by...much love, my love...for some DMC. She alwaus give Mama something to think about as she heads to her new Kingdom::wink, wink::( I pay attention;)Now I am trying to find a way to help MuzikLover...good night

Signed,
Another day in this wonderful life of mine while fighting a losing battle

Saving All My Love for You

A few stolen moments is all that we share
You've got your family, and they need you there
Though I've tried to resist, being last on your list
But no other man's gonna do
So I'm saving all my love for you

It's not very easy, living all alone
My friends try and tell me, find a man of my own
But each time I try, I just break down and cry
Cause I'd rather be home feeling blue
So I'm saving all my love for you

You used to tell me we'd run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient, just wait a little longer
But that's just an old fantasy

I've got to get ready, just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
Cause tonight is the night, for feeling alright
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love
Yes I'm saving all my love
Yes I'm saving all my love for you

No other woman, is gonna love you more
Cause tonight is the night, that I'm feeling alright
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love
Yeah I'm saving all my lovin
Yes I'm saving all my love for you
For you, for you

This music teacher sung this song this morning on the Steve Harvey Mornning Show and blew it out the park. I had to find the lyrics cause its been in my head all morning.

Signed,
Still Humming this tune

My Child...

It is so true, Lauryn said it best…it could all be so simple, but we rather make it hard...There are always unexpected opportunities in life…chances of a lifetime and it’s up to you not to fuck’em up...I am still trying to figure out if this is one of those opportunity...
…One of my siblingchildren once said… “...wishing you were here,but you're not, you're there and there doesn't know how lucky it is…" I thought I knew exactly what she meant then but I truly understand now...

Signed by
- Hating the Tennessee River and I-40

Funny feeling

It sure is funny how all of a sudden feelings change. Do I laugh to keep from crying? Or is it that I am tired of crying?

Replaceable

It is so funny how people this that they are irreplaceable when really they are replaceable. It is so crazy how that you can care for someone. You expect for them to care for you in return after all the time spent and other factors. Then all of a sudden things all change somewhat like overnight. That's cool cause what you won't do someone will. mad because I graduated before you, mad because I had a job in my field before I graduated, mad that I have my life in more order than yours...this is why and how you know that you are replaceable. I do not believe in place holders but in this case that is what you might have been. I would rather be courting instead of dating! Please note this! Thanks for being the one to prepare me for the next one who will be if not is already the better one for me. I hope that 24 East and 75 South treats you as well as 40 West did... To the left to the left...just like you left to the left...Bye!

Escape...

DAMN it felt so good to be out of Tennessee for a 3 day weekend! I had to balance my life for a few days. There is nothing like family time and alone time. Time to sing, drive and cry about any and every thing that came to mind, heart and presence. I can't wait to do it again but it won't be so long in between times again. I promised myself that during the drive back. The escape from the jobs, life issues both personally and professionally, and family issues was fanDAMNtasic I know that none of this will ever end but a break from it was well beyond needed. I missed Babes and SiblingChild #4,like I knew that I would but everyone needs a break sometimes. I know they needed one from me cause I needed one from me too! Any who...it has been a few days since I last wrote a blog so I just had to let this out right quick as summer school and work picks up I will probably see less of this blog but I plan on keeping this escape as much as possible.

Anything but HAPPY!

There comes a time in life when you have to let go of all pointless drama and the people who create it and the bad and focus solely on the good. After all, life is too short too be anything but happy!

Bruised but not broken is exactly what I am. I have the marks for the pain but I am still standing.

Next Lifetime

Maybe next lifetime i will have all the love that I want from who I want it from. Maybe I will be the right shape, right size, right color with the right hair length. Maybe next lifetime none of this will matter because the hearts will meet before the mind and society takes over. maybe next lifetime I will have enough money to buy everything and anything that I want. Maybe next lifetime I will find the one just for me...the one that God made just for me! Maybe next lifetime I won't have so many do overs...Maybe next lifetime will be this lifetime...because this lifetime is not over yet!

Is it too much to ask...

is it too much to ask? All I want is some time....TIME...I just want to be in your presence...to be around you...to be near you...to be with you...it doesn't even have to be sexual...it could be...because its good...anyway...all I wanna be is around in your company. I guess it is kinda selfish but I don't care...neither should you because if I'm in your presence you have all of me...I wanna be all in!DAMN I believe it NOW...I wanna be all in...I have given everything/everyone else up to give you all of me and all I get is the runaround. Is it too much to ask? DAMN I thought it would be an even trade...even with all that you have to do and all that I am doing...I still make time and move things around so that I can have time for you and us to be together...it is too much to ask for you to match me! MATCH ME...Is it too much to ask?

Absence makes the heart grown fonder...but....only when the absence is short!