Finding me...

I'd rather find love and lose it, than never find love at all...I wasn't looking for it. It kinda found me or is finding me...lol...patience and praying is what I told someone today who told me that they were looking for a real man...I'm not one to give relationship advice (at least in my opinion) but everyone comes to me. Now that I am in a relationship...whew...that felt funny but good to say...(emotional walls,emotional walls) I try to apply all the good relationship advice and tips to my own and the shit don't work...

Broken Thoughts

I wanted this…
I got this…
Did I really want this?
Do I really have this?
I am happy.
Why am I not smiling?
What do I do now?
Old friends of the past seem to cross my mind more than the present.
What should I do about this?
New friends are getting to know all the secrets of the old and creating some of the new…”Good Mornings” included…But what about the Afternoons and Evenings…
I’m just trippin’ cause I know where my happiness lies, right?
Will all my planning pay off? Or Will it lead to a plan of failure?
Am I as ready as I thought I was for a relationship? Or should I have took is hesitation as a sign from God that I should slow down and live a little more?
Will all this come together? Or will it just fall apart?
Can he tell that I am not all here? Or do am I a good enough actor to make it seem like I am?
Just a bunch of broken thoughts
Different kind of day….I prayed for what I wanted and I think I got it but its funny I am not as happy as I thought I would be….
Different. Energetic. Musical. Experienced. Testy. Relief. Increasing. Utmost. Surprising.

He says

He says that heaven is inside of me...we just ordinary people and I make him so high. He's no longer the motherless child, running away from everything. I stopped him from running.

Revengence

An eye for an eye leaves everyone blind!