Broken Thoughts

I wanted this…
I got this…
Did I really want this?
Do I really have this?
I am happy.
Why am I not smiling?
What do I do now?
Old friends of the past seem to cross my mind more than the present.
What should I do about this?
New friends are getting to know all the secrets of the old and creating some of the new…”Good Mornings” included…But what about the Afternoons and Evenings…
I’m just trippin’ cause I know where my happiness lies, right?
Will all my planning pay off? Or Will it lead to a plan of failure?
Am I as ready as I thought I was for a relationship? Or should I have took is hesitation as a sign from God that I should slow down and live a little more?
Will all this come together? Or will it just fall apart?
Can he tell that I am not all here? Or do am I a good enough actor to make it seem like I am?
Just a bunch of broken thoughts
Different kind of day….I prayed for what I wanted and I think I got it but its funny I am not as happy as I thought I would be….
Different. Energetic. Musical. Experienced. Testy. Relief. Increasing. Utmost. Surprising.