Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Unthinkable

So this songs so speaks to exactly how and what I am feelings...All I can say is this is different, very different and I like it and it likes me...I'm Ready...I'm Ready to do the Unthinkable

Unthinkable
Verse 1:

Moment of honesty
Someone's gotta take the lead tonight
Whose it gonna be?
I'm gonna sit right here
And tell you all that comes to me
If you have something to say
You should say it right now
(Drake: You should say it right now)

You ready?

Bridge:

You give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I think I deserve it
(Drake: I deserve it, I think it deserve it..Let it go)
It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore
And I can't take it
(Drake: I can't take it)

Chorus-Alicia & Drake:

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
If you ask me I'm ready
(Echo: I'm ready, I'm ready)
If you ask me I'm ready
(Echo: I'm ready, I'm ready)

Verse 2:
I know you once said to me
"This is exactly how it should feel when it's meant to be"
Time is only wasting so why wait for eventually?
If we gon' do something 'bout it
We should do it right now
(Drake: We should do it right now)

Bay, uh

Bridge:

You give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I know I deserve it
(Drake: I deserve it, I know I deserve it. Let it go)
Its becoming something that's impossible to ignore
It's what we make it
(Drake: It's what we make it)

Chorus-Alicia & Drake:

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
Or would it be so beautiful either way I'm sayin'
If you ask me I'm ready
(Echo: I'm ready I'm ready)
If you ask me I'm ready
(Echo: I'm ready)

Yeah, sing...

Hook:

Why give up before we try
Feel the lows before the highs
Clip our wings before we fly away
I can't say I came prepared
I'm suspended in the air
Won't you come be in the sky with me

Chorus-Alicia & Drake:

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
Or would it be so beautiful either way I'm sayin'
If you ask me I'm ready
(Echo: I'm ready, I'm ready)
If you ask me I'm ready
(Echo: I'm ready, I'm ready)

Even Angels

Fantasia Even Angels...speaks for it self...
-Verse 1
I'm driving in circles
should have bought that new phone
I can't find my way to
all the places I call home

I'm
(on my own)
I'm at the station pumping gas
yea
I'm taking out the trash
I'm
(all alone)

And whose there
Whose there

-Bridge
Since you been gone
I learned how to move on
how to be myself
I don;t need nobody's help
I'm doing so good
I forgot that I could
Live like this
Ohh

-Chorus
First step
take a deep breath
you don't need a reason why
you can
you can
take take time
you can
you can
walk, run, dive
Close call
think you might fall
but all you gotta do is try
even angels
even angels
learn to fly


-Verse 2
coming home in this late night
should have left the lights on
i can't help but image all the things
that could go wrong

I'm
(on my own)
I'm in the kitchen
on the chair
reaching for the top shelf
I'm
(all alone)
and I'm okay
I'm alright

-Bridge
-Chorus

-Breakdown
Everyday im stronger
it can't get better
if it if it
don't hurt
why why
(OOh why)
see me in my next life
heartbreak's a teacher
and now
I love ah love ah
little bit deeper
why oh why (oh why)

Running Out of Fools

So i was getting mentored today about matters of the heart and RKM told me to download a few songs, listen to them 8 times straight threw and by the 3 time, i will be screaming and crying, the tears will dry up and the healing will begin. So i figured since I had tried everything else and nothing seemed to work but pray, Gospel music and time, why not try to speed up this process. Here is the first song off the list...more where this came from. powerful lyrics...Running Out of Fools by Aretha Franklin 1964

Sure you haven't got the wrong number
You sure its me you wanna talk to tonight?
Everyone in town's got your number
Everybody's got you pegged right

Is that why yu got in touch with me?
I guess you must be runnin' out of fools

When you went and left me there crying
Your goodbye was even colder than ice
It didn't bother you I was crying
And now you wanna break my heart twice

Is that why you got in touch with me?
I guess you must be runnin' out of fools

Guess you got back (guess you got)
To my name
In your little black book

Well, listen
Tell you what (tell you what)
Bet you forgot (you forgot)
How I even look

So go ahead with all your sweet talking
Go ahead for all the good it can do
Have yourself a dime's worth of talking
And then I'm gonna hang right up on you

'Cause this time, you're not
You're not getting through to me
I guess you must be runnin' out of fools

Even fools like me
Even fools like me
I said you're running out of fools
Even old fools like me

It’s a Beautiful Day

It’s a Beautiful Day

Life is a journey,
Not a destination,
There are no mistakes,
Just chances we’ve taken
Lay down your regrets cause all we have is now

Wake up in the morning
And get out of bed
Start making a mental list in my head
Of all of the things that I am grateful for

Early in the morning
It’s the dawn of a new day
New hopes new dreams new ways
I open up my eyes and
I open up my mind and
I wonder how life will surprise me today
Early in the morning
It’s the dawn of a new day
New hopes new dreams new ways
I open up my heart and
I’m gon’ do my part and
Make this a positively beautiful day

It’s a Beautiful Day
It’s a Beautiful Day
It’s a Beautiful Day

Life is a challenge not a competition
You can still smell the roses and be on a mission
Just take a moment to get in touch with your heart
Sometimes you feel like you’ve got something to prove
Remind yourself that there’s only one you
Just take a moment to give thanks of who you are
Early in the morning
It’s the dawn of a new day
New hopes, new dreams, new ways
I open up my eyes and
I open up my mind and
I wonder how life will surprise me today

Early in the morning
It’s the dawn of a new day
New hopes, new dreams, new ways
I open up my heart and
I’m gon’ do my part and
Make this a positively beautiful day

It’s a Beautiful Day
It’s a Beautiful Day

Let’s make this a wonderful
Let’s make this a powerful
Let’s make this a Beautiful Day
It’s a Beautiful Day

Life is a journey,
Not a destination,
There are no mistakes,
Just chances we’ve taken
Lay down your regrets cause all we have is now

Long GoodBye

Now after the events have occurred, it's time to say goodbye...a "Long Goodbye" at that...It's been fun, but I have to now let go. Someone once said that the summer offers a luxury that the fall can not afford (or something like that)...this is so true. Same goes for the Winter loves that don't last because of the Spring flings. Just in case that fits your situation, this should too...You can make it a Long GoodBye and Blame It On Me as long as we say goodbye...Can't continue to play your fool...Holla

Long GoodBye

Mmhmmmm.....

I say I love you
You say that's kind
You don't wanna get too close
You loved me crazy
I lost my mind

Listen...

You're everything I never wanted
And all the things I didn't need
This ain't who I wanna be
You don't have to stay forever
I'll take passion over pride
Full moon, high tide
Let's make it a long goodbye
Tomorrow we'll pick up the pieces
Try to mend our broken lives
Soft kiss, sweet lies
Let's make it a long goodbye

Yeah...
I cried in silence
I lived through you
I've given everything away
And maybe I can learn to fall
For someone who can give me all
The things I"m not afraid to lose

Whenever you see lonely faces
That's where I'll be
Don't cry for me, no no no no
Don't cry for me, don't cry for me yeah yeahhhh

Hey, don't cry for me, no no no
I'm gonna be okay

This Too Shall Pass by India.Arie

This song could not be more appropriate for all the events, incidents, accidents and occurrences from the last 6 months...I am so glad that "This Too Shall Pass"...Enjoy

I achieved so much in life
But I’m an amateur in love
My bank account is doing just fine
But my emotions are bankrupt

My body is nice and strong
But my heart is in a million pieces
When the sun is shining so am I
But when the night falls so does my tears

Sometimes the beatings so loud in my heart
That I can barely tell our voices apart
Sometimes the fear is so loud in my head
That I can barely hear what God says

Then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angel’s whisper that this too shall pass
My ancestors whisper that this day one day will be the past
So I walk in faith that this too shall pass

The one that loved me the most
Turned around and hurt me the worse
I’m doing my best to move on
But the pain just keeps singing me songs

My head and my heart are at war
Cause love ain't happening the way I wanted
Feel like I’m about to break down
Can’t hear the light at the end of the tunnel

So I pray for healing in my heart
To be put back together what is torn apart
And I pray for quiet in my head
That I can hear clearly what God says

Then I hear the whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the Angels whisper that this too shall pass
My ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past
So I walk in faith that this too shall pass

All of sudden I realize
That it only hurts worse to fight it
So I embrace my shadow
And hold on to the morning light

This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
This Too Shall Pass
I hear the angels whisper
that trouble don't have to last always
I hear the angels whisper
Even the day after tomorrow will one day be yesterday.
I hear my angels whisper.
I hear my angels whisper.
This too shall pass.

Learning...

The different between school and life is that in school, you are taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you are given a test that teaches you a lesson.

Resentment

Resentment"

I wish I could believe you then I'll be alright
But now everything you told me really don't apply
To the way I feel inside
Loving you was easy once upon a time
But now my suspicions of you have multiplied
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

Just can't seem to get over the way you hurt me
Don't know how you gave another who didn't mean a thing, no
The very thing you gave to me
I thought I could forgive you and I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you I know it ain't the same
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forget this
But I'm much too full of resentment

I may never understand why
I'm doing the best that I can and I
I tried and I tried to forget this
I'm much too full of resentment

I'll always remember feeling like I was no good
Like I couldn't do it for you like your mistress could
And it's all because you lied

[Bridge:]
Loved you more than ever
More than my own life
The best part of me I gave you
It was sacrificed
And it's all because you lied

[Chorus:]
I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I tried and I tried to forget this
But I'm too damn full of resentment

I know she was attractive but I was here first
Been ridin' with you for six years why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you, you
I know your probably thinking what's up with Bee
I been crying for too long what did you do to me
I used to be so strong but now you took my soul
I'm crying cant stop crying cant stop crying
You could of told me that you wasn't happy
I know you didn't wanna hurt me
But look what you done-done to me now
I gotta look at her in her eyes and see she's had half of me
How could you lie


--It may have only been 6 months and not 6 years. I am still trying to work pass some things that have taken place. I don't want to be full of resentment...Praying everyday for some relief...this may take a while. It's not that I am holding on to it. The shit hurt just that bad.I'm sorry.

The Type of Love I'm Looking For...My Feelngs

Rev. Run once said, " Any dude can love 1000 girls, but it takes a gentlemen to love 1 woman 100 ways." Also, "Girls want to look perfect for a bunch of guys, a woman wants to look beautiful for 1 man."

I was to be at peace with everyone and everything so that everything and everyone will be at peace with me. I want to gain the courage to let someone love me.
I want to feel important. I want to cuddle at the appropriate times. I want to feel secure, safe and special. I want to be sincerely happy…If I am happy, you win. I want respect. I was a true reality, instead of a misleading dream. Just tell me the truth. I will respect you a whole lot more. I want to laugh. I want someone that will listen to me and actually respond with advice, help and support…even when I go on and on and on! I know that I am a little spoil…just accept it. Besides if I am as spoiled as you think I am, I will spoil my RIGHT man. I want a friend. I want to kick it…go to the park, mall, happy hour, the fun stuff, we can even watch ESPN, time is time. I want a nice guy that notices my effort and appreciates it and says so. I want to be appreciated. I want not to be taken for granted, if I give a lot and you are happy…please act as such.

Someone once told me if you like someone, let them know... if you love someone, let it show... don't hide those feelings, let yourself go…