Life with no regrets

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. Friends/family are like balloons: once you let them go, you can't get them back. So I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.

Realization

Some things you want, just aren't meant to be...that's seems to be more than not in my life until I realized that some of the things I want, do not want me in the same way I want it. I work hard so I can play hard and have all the things that I need/want/deserve...mix that with some wishful thinking and you would think that I would be overwhelmed with a perfect world...not me. My happiness seemed temporary until I realized that I would have it all, if I took better care of myself and let other things take care of it self. This will be the case from this point forward. *Listening to Save The Hero by Beyonce* ...who is going to save the hero?...

Lyrics - Hustler - Keri Hilson

This definitely makes me a hustler...

Jennifer Hudson - Where You At

I do wanna say something to you...

I do wanna say something to you is what you said...this is how all this began again...
However each time I have to be the one to start it...
We here I go again...
I have something that I want to say to you...
Honestly, I don't trust myself...especially with you and the emotions of the pass that I knew were not gone. I called myself burying them with the pass emotions from the ones before you. I can't lie...the residue of you was never completely washed away. I think I preferred it that way...

Quick Question? Did it really scare you that much? Does this not scare you now? Would the "friendship" change if I was to open up completely? Are you being completely open with me? Who's more of damaged goods, you or I? What did you expect?

I am trying not to care and I am failing miserably...damn...so much to say but I am trying to be patient and allow time to pass and other things to run it's course...until then I will let the music play...Hustler by Keri Hilson..."...and I would move the weight, off of my shoulder, I would run away...damn I have so much to say

I am the hero in which this long poetic composition is centered upon, involving a series of great achievements or events that are narrated in elevated style! I am heroic; majestic and impressively great. The epic events of my war (life) are of unusually great size or extent...just watch and see joule this story ends.

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other

people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

—Marianne Williamson

Eyes wide open

As I lay here wondering when the sandman will come to visit, I think how fast time has came and gone. This year is almost over, 2010 is almost out of here...2011 doesn't know what it is about to get into. People have changed, places have changed, problems have came and gone...2010 has been a roller coaster ride...the thrills of the highs and lows...I don't know which way I prefer it best...I just thank God being constant all the while.

If I must say so myself

Ain't it something to have good news, then not be able to share it with someone? Well, today was that day for me. I have been seeking "break throughs" in life lately. Today one came and no one was there to share and/or celebrate it with me. My BFFs are not here, my Omega man has a cold or something, my birthday buddy had date nite, etc...you get the picture! So I just had to suck it up and say "Thank you, Lord! I am glad that you are always here with me! I am grateful even if I have to celebrate it with just You and me!" so I went to grab take out and a bottle of wine for my celebration with myself. Didn't even drink the wine, just ate and watched some tv. I figure I will have to get use to more nights like then with my new job and all...I didn't tell you what the good news was. I went on an interview last week and got the call back today to go for my drug test and background check on Monday! The Lord is still in the prayer answering business. He knows what's best for me and I am so glad. I sure do regret that certain individuals aren't here to celebrate with me. *Takes a moment of silence for him* Naw, he ain't dead. Just not where I am. Oh how I miss him *tear* *pause* *takes deep breath* at times I still can smell his scent and feel his arms, damn now is not the time for this anywho, A new chapter is about to develop in my life and an old one is concluding *smile* my mommy and sibling are coming tomorrow, maybe we will celebrate tomorrow...it still won't be anything like it would have been today tho....if I say so myself

For the 1st time in a long time

For the first time in a long time, I realized why people lose touch. My best friends have been my best friends for a while. And even though we don't talk every day, every week or once a month, I will still give them an organ without question. Well today, I contacted my high school sweetheart for the first time in a long time. We Facebook chatted for a minute, then Pooh called and we talked for over an hour. It felt just like old time...crazy, right! I know...anywho, then I started to remember why we stop dating...He is still the same ole Pooh, just older in physical age and a little more spiritual mature. But in essence he is still POOH. As I concluded the convo, he said his famous word...You are still my best friend and I got nothing but love for you...the only thing he didn't do was call me "Babygirl" or talk about "Shelia and Homeboy"...for the first time in a long time, I renegades what it was like before the last 2 came along...thank you, Pooh...this one is for you!